100! Daring to Move…

16 Jul

This is my 100th post. And an auspicious one at that – given the recent lack of posting. I haven’t been around. I fell off the wagon. I fell into doubt, insecurity and indecision. Truth be told, I’m still lying in the dust wondering how I fell so easily and so quickly.

But I will get up and dust myself off.

With me, it’s all or nothing, and I have had a spell of “nothing” for a while now. No inspiration, no passion, no spark. And BOY have I made myself miserable in the process. The positive side to all of this gloom is that I get terribly introspective. I brood over the nature of God and our purpose here on earth – all that good stuff. Now, I know that all sounds very gloomy, … but it also means that, at the end of the process, I come out feeling a little bit lighter. A bit clearer than before. It means that a few more puzzle pieces have clicked into place and that the “big picture” is a little clearer than before.

I have a lot of walls to break down. I also know that you have to hit the wall before you can start taking it down.

The lyrics to this Switchfoot song came to me today out of the blue:

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone’s here
Everyone’s here
Everybody’s watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

P.S. I have a few angels who know who I am and who “dare me to move” time and time again. You know who you are. Thank you.
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One Response to “100! Daring to Move…”

  1. javaqueen14 July 17, 2008 at 5:47 am #

    Poo! I just lost my comment. So, here I go again;

    “With me, it’s all or nothing, and I have had a spell of “nothing” for a while now. No inspiration, no passion, no spark. And BOY have I made myself miserable in the process.”

    I can so relate to you. For me being ALL or NOTHING has hurt me. I try to battle it everyday. I just got through with something very similar with me loosing interest… it stinks to feel kinda numb. But, I’m back and appreciate the feeling good times because I know that BLAH will come back, it always does. I have a page called “BWO” inspired by a woman named Ruby which is all about blogging without obligations; it has helped me because everytime I got that “blah” “uninspired” feeling, I wanted to rip my blog down. I’m so glad I found her page.

    I’m glad you are starting to feel better Pia!

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